最近，毕业论文，毕业聚会，毕业照片，毕业纪念册……毕业的那一刻在渐渐走来，可是人总是在期待未来，于是，毕业的离别，对于我，是下一个用鼓足勇气去面对的话题，最近，对于我，主题只有一个——等待，等待一张纸或一封邮件，那决定了我下一个旅程

随着一封一封录取我的信件到来，我开始意识到我将要去U.S, 将要离开这片最亲爱的土地了。我之前从没有想过这种分别，从没有想过离开中国是一种什么样的心情，想的只是很平常的东西：离开爸爸妈妈，离开朋友，离开自己的家。转变来自于最近….

最近，每天都在网上读Economist的新闻和经济评论，最近，因为西藏3.14事件每天都听到国内外截然不同的报道，最近，msn上每天都和国外的学长学姐们聊起中国遭受的诽谤和美国经济的萧条….到今日，在economist上读到马英九成功竞选的文章时，偶尔地扫了一眼下面的读者评论，被人推荐和支持最多的是下面两个人的两段话：

What is sovereign is not one China, defined either as People'r Republic of China or just Republic of China. What is sovereign is the people, who deserve a fair and just society that empowers and takes care of them. Chinese has a saying: water can carry the boat, so can water topple the boat. People are the water. Throughout Chinese history, when a dynasty fails, it is often just interpreted as the old establishment losing touch with the suffering of the people. With your best conscience, ask yourself if the government sees the suffering and the needs of its people. Does Beijing government? Does Taipei government? Chinese has one saying: learn to walk before trying to run. Beijing government will do well to focus on managing better for people under its control... There are all kinds of sad stories one can find in Chinese forums. Taipei government will do well to remember, no matter the political party, the political leadership are PUBLIC SERVANTS. Do they have the best interests of people at heart first and foremost? No, they don't. It is truely a shame, people can write so much about politics and democracy, without ever just sitting down in a down-to-earth manner and just think with clarity what people, be they in China or Taiwan, truly need. Instead, they are brain-trapped in a fight over political ideological legacy.

In 1989 Chinese leader Comrade Deng Xiaoping take wise and determined (maybe some kinds of sorrow) measures to stop a "color revolution" which has happened in Ukraine. The measure make China to be stable and lags to prosperous and strong, that make big contribution to the whole world. If those stupid students who are more like to be ruffian succeed, there would be huge disaster to China and even the the Asia. You western countries sent spy to mislead the students into darkness with irrational attempt to control China like you do in the past. But the time is changing, China is becoming strong, show your respect as a gentleman please. And I want to tell friends all over the world Taiwan is a part of China like Hong kong and Macao, if you have some doubt please check out the history if it haven't been changed. China can't tolerate any people taking any measure to take Taiwan apart from the motherland----China.

   我感到欣慰和激动。不能说他们的观点完全的正确，但他们让我想起在台湾被美国人追问“是不是共产党”“中国有没有人权”“为什么你们认为台湾属于中国”这些问题，让我想起在星巴克我和yyg对Jone算是澄清他听到的媒体的诽谤，让我想起复旦的一女生在酒吧里对着我的美国朋友大谈她对共产党和中国的厌恶，让我想起在国外的课堂上我朋友与一台湾女生就这些问题激昂的辩论……从某个时刻起，我不想参与政治，因为那是利益者们相互角逐的游戏。但从最近，我开始感到跨越了国界，就已经不单是一个学生的身份，被贴上“made in China”的标签就要负起一份“爱国”的责任。这种责任不是对国家的包庇，也不是对西方的盲目崇拜，而是要了解和认清历史，是要在面对恶意诽谤的时候可以用历史的证据去给以有力的回击，是要在面对正确的批评的时候可以更清楚中国的问题到底在哪里。所以，最近，除了等待最后的结果，除了签证，除了毕业论文和聚会，我觉得有项更重要的事情……